Over this last year, writing this blog and making movies, I can say I have learned a lot about myself, sex or otherwise. So, I’m going to lower the bar of my privacy yet a little bit more and let you in on a few confessions and things that I’ve picked up along the way.

1. Sometimes, I masturbate in rhythm with the song I’m listening to

Music has always been a trigger for me. A good guitar riff can arouse me more than ‘dick + vagina’ porn and syncing to it can be even more pleasurable. I rest my case.

Wanna hear the music? Check out ADAM’s masturbation clip.

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2. I have already masturbated while editing my own film

It sounds way more narcissistic than it is. It took me a while to accept my body and myself,so when I saw myself in the footage of NAKED, first, I panicked. I almost couldn’t bear to look at it, but I want to do the editing myself so I forced myself and then it became easier. I even started to rediscover myself and like what I was seeing. That was a good life moment, or at least some kind of breakthrough.

3. When I have sex, I sometimes think about camera angles

I wouldn’t call it so much a distraction but more like a healthy professional habit… Anyway, it also helps get another perspective on the situation, but I try to snap out of it before I lose my boner.

This is from Maria Bala’s Silent Guy.

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4. I am secretly angry at my friends for not wanting to perform in my films

I said it. It’s out there. You guys, I love you but you would be so perfect if you were more naked and didn’t mind the cameras…

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5. I don’t have orgies every week

Seriously, it’s not because you shoot porn that your everyday life is made of breakfast cunnilingus and afternoon group sex. Well, I did get a bit wild this year and learned a couple of tricks but unfortunately, it’s more about meeting with your sleazy accountant than having hot sex with strangers – doesn’t hurt to dream though.

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6. I get aroused thinking of James Gandolfini as Tony Soprano

I don’t know why, I haven’t even finished the first season of The Sopranos. And it’s always in a tiny bathroom while he’s all dressed and I’m bending over. This fictional macho always makes me come first though.

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